woaitsj3ff

I'm the kind of person who rarely gets mad or angry, yes sometimes I get annoyed like anyone else, but I rarely get angry.

I am right now very very upset, and I'd like to get some advice on what to do to calm down.

1. I cannot go out, if I drive when I am angry, I will start a real life GrandTheftAuto remake. Or at least I worry that I will.
2. I cannot be out with friends, since I work at 4 am in the morning
3. When I get angry, I get very stubborn-angry, and I first yell then after a while.. I get very quiet.
4. The being quiet part is the area that worries me, that is usually right before all hell breaks loose.
5. Last time hell broke loose I nearly destroyed everything in front of me, including myself.

I do not ask for lectures or anything, just ideas or advices on what some of you guys do to calm yourself down.

the "count to ten" method for me does not work
neither will anger management (I dare someone to mention that, seriously).

Maybe I just need time alone right now to vent, but venting is what worries me, I can seriously... let's just say I won't be able to vent healthy.

I'm the kind of guy who is way chill, but when I reach a limit or capacity of where I am angry, all the anger I have been holding in just.. erupts like multiples of nuclear bombs.

I have no idea what I am about to do, but I am a tad bit worried, right now I am calm and no I do not want to discuss what happened.
Keep any smart-*** comments out of this.
This is a serious post and I am just asking for advice, (after stating what for me will not work).
Thank you.

acefalcon2

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hmm... i'm seriously thinking into shouting in the hills.... thats what i usually do... but after looking through the post... i doubt it is that safe for you to go alone.... mayb go with someone who truly understands what you are going through?

neurocity

iTrader: (17)

Find herbals substance....
Smoke herbal substance...
Eat twinkies...
Go to bed...

Do not post after finding said substance.

Your drunk posts made you sound like a borderline retard that fell out the back door of the "Little-Bus".

Couldnt you see Brian driving a little bus...singing along with his little special people.

"Reels on da baush, gow wound and wond,...my shoes hurt!!!"

^Reason no. 478 why I'm going to hell!!!^

Laughter is the only thing that makes me feel better.

kf678

I usually find something that will distract me from my thoughts... cleaning usually does the trick... my car, my house, or even my desk if I am at work.

97-SC300

iTrader: (17)

Take that anger out in the gym. Works for me.

Roman.

highstakes

Call people you havent talked to in a while, maybe that will keep your mind off of whatever you were mad at.

jmkiang

iTrader: (1)

How you doin Jeff?

habeeb89

iTrader: (3)

What really helps me is music or tv, just something to get your mind off of anger. Try watching Comedy Central.

GQD_GS4

i take it out on the weights and esp the punching bag...but wrap your hands well so you dont break any bones / tendons in your hand!

woaitsj3ff

Thanks guys, no the working out thing doesn't really seem to work..
last time I went I messed up my knuckles pretty bad, hence the bruise that never will go away on my right hand, 3rd knuckle.
It's been there for over 2 years and hasn't ever healed, doctor says it won't.

I'm up for work now. I still feel the same, tried to get some sleep but just I don't know, woke up feverishly angry..

I'm going to just try and swallow it up and deal with it, although I don't know how.

Thank you for your advice guys, I really appreciate it.

passnu2

iTrader: (33)

Hope you are okay man!

1. Listen to music
2. Working out
3. Driving around with the windows down to get fresh air
4. Like Matt said laughter
5. Go hang around some kids

Go spend some time with Cherry and get things off your mind?

woaitsj3ff

1. No music, nothing is good on nowadays..
2. I may hit up the gym later, but most likely I'll end up hurting myself there.
3. Did that this morning, I nearly froze my face off, I didn't mind it but I started to get blurry vision after driving 20 minutes to work in 20 degree weather slapping my face. Felt good at the same time. Odd.
4. Can't find a reason to smile..
5. Wish I could, there are none around.. I love kids, but none around here to entertain me.

And Cherry, this is the source of the problem, although it's not necessarily all her fault, it could be mainly mine and I always put the blame on myself, so it probably is.

I don't know.

I feel like I'm about to go beserk.

I kind of feel calm though too.
Yet, not. I feel sadness without any empathy towards anyone or anything. I just feel empty.
Emotionless and soul-less almost.
Kind like I'm here, but my mind and everything else is not.
I feel no joy or remorse either.
Like I'm just a stranger inside my own body, my own life.
alive but yet dead.

neurocity

iTrader: (17)

What could possibly get you so mad?

woaitsj3ff

myself.
I hate myself.
nothing I ever do is good enough.
epic f_cking fail.

I'm not the kind of guy to hate life either, I'm pretty nice to others, and do my best to be there for anyone and everyone.
I volunteer, I'm a good samaritan (however you spell it), I do the best I can.
Yet I still fail.
Fail at what? I don't even know.
I get no where, I am no where.
I have a family, a fiancee, friends, yet what the hell is my own problem.
Am I being selfish? I highly doubt it, I'm always a giver, never a taker really..
Maybe this is a test to see how much I can stand mentally before I snap?
But why..
Why must it be me.
I am losing my grip on sanity, I have no clue what in the world is wrong with me, it can't be chemical imbalance can it? I don't go through this, ever.
I'm not an attention wh*re.I am at a loss...

I want to end this insanity, it's ripping me apart, and I feel my mind losing it.
It scares me, yet I want to embrace it.
No I am not crazy.

neurocity

iTrader: (17)

Go see a doctor.